I got a bunch of stuff in my head I need to get out. Get out of my head you things!!
First of all ... drinking. Why do I do it?? It eats my money, it makes me feel like ca-ca. And yet I do it. Makes me wonder if I'm an alcoholic. My dad is, I'm pretty sure and I know it's genetic. I don't feel like it's that I need it, it's just that i have a hard time saying no to it. I keep telling myself I'll stop drinking for a bit to test the theory and it never happens.
Next ... I am so not getting any younger and there is SO MUCH I want to do with my life and I feel like it's getting away from me. But so much of it revolves around money. How do I change that? First, I want to own a house. That requires a SUBSTANTIAL amount of money. And I have none. And I have shitty credit. And the credit thing is such a HUGE mountain I just generally run from it rather than even try to start heading up it... Second, I want to travel. And I want to travel like crazy. But that requires money but is easier before we have kids. Kids need to come soon and so does owning a house, but then where does the travel come in? And where does the money from from to fund it? Not only do I want these big things but there's just very little things even that I don't have the money for right now ... like rabies shots for my dogs, preventatives for my dogs, little music things josh needs...ugh I need to make a list so if I do stumble upon money I know where to spend it. I just see people spend money all the time on things to treat themselves and I just don't have it. I've been traveling for 2 months now and I'd love a nice massage. I don't even have $40 to spare on a massage. But even so, I think I'd forgo the massage and save the $40 toward that awesome cruise from Europe to Galveston in October that I'm dying to take. Geezus we sure do not have enough money.
And alright haters ... I watched the Royal Wedding yesterday and I cried. I'm crying right now thinking about it. A lot of people are raggin on the people who wanted to watch it or cried at it. They don't seem to see what the big deal is. I think for a lot of girls it's what we always dreamed of growing up. We watched, read and believed in fairy tales. We believed that someday our prince would come. And not that we don't have princes in our lives, but this guy is an honest to God friggin price. And she just became a princess. Every girl wanted to be a princess growing up. Not only that but not gonna lie ... I had a crush on Prince William growin up. And a small part of me thought there was some distance chance that I could meet him and become a princess. That didn't happen of course and I love my life but it's also party jealousy of the wedding they had. It was broadcast live on EVERY CHANNEL AROUND THE WORLD. Everything she wanted was at her feet because she was marrying into royalty. Everything was so perfect in the wedding and in her life, and she will live her life taken care of because she's a part of the royal family. She never has to work again. I heard someone say yesterday, "I wouldn't want that life." Are you kidding me??? I'd give my right arm to be taken care of financially for the rest of my life. Yes you are in the public eye and have public duties but it's not like you're having to work in a labor intensive industry or threatening your life on a daily basis. You have to make public appearances and be photographed. Oh the horror.
Alright. At least this stuff is out of my head now. Now what?
First of all ... drinking. Why do I do it?? It eats my money, it makes me feel like ca-ca. And yet I do it. Makes me wonder if I'm an alcoholic. My dad is, I'm pretty sure and I know it's genetic. I don't feel like it's that I need it, it's just that i have a hard time saying no to it. I keep telling myself I'll stop drinking for a bit to test the theory and it never happens.
Next ... I am so not getting any younger and there is SO MUCH I want to do with my life and I feel like it's getting away from me. But so much of it revolves around money. How do I change that? First, I want to own a house. That requires a SUBSTANTIAL amount of money. And I have none. And I have shitty credit. And the credit thing is such a HUGE mountain I just generally run from it rather than even try to start heading up it... Second, I want to travel. And I want to travel like crazy. But that requires money but is easier before we have kids. Kids need to come soon and so does owning a house, but then where does the travel come in? And where does the money from from to fund it? Not only do I want these big things but there's just very little things even that I don't have the money for right now ... like rabies shots for my dogs, preventatives for my dogs, little music things josh needs...ugh I need to make a list so if I do stumble upon money I know where to spend it. I just see people spend money all the time on things to treat themselves and I just don't have it. I've been traveling for 2 months now and I'd love a nice massage. I don't even have $40 to spare on a massage. But even so, I think I'd forgo the massage and save the $40 toward that awesome cruise from Europe to Galveston in October that I'm dying to take. Geezus we sure do not have enough money.
And alright haters ... I watched the Royal Wedding yesterday and I cried. I'm crying right now thinking about it. A lot of people are raggin on the people who wanted to watch it or cried at it. They don't seem to see what the big deal is. I think for a lot of girls it's what we always dreamed of growing up. We watched, read and believed in fairy tales. We believed that someday our prince would come. And not that we don't have princes in our lives, but this guy is an honest to God friggin price. And she just became a princess. Every girl wanted to be a princess growing up. Not only that but not gonna lie ... I had a crush on Prince William growin up. And a small part of me thought there was some distance chance that I could meet him and become a princess. That didn't happen of course and I love my life but it's also party jealousy of the wedding they had. It was broadcast live on EVERY CHANNEL AROUND THE WORLD. Everything she wanted was at her feet because she was marrying into royalty. Everything was so perfect in the wedding and in her life, and she will live her life taken care of because she's a part of the royal family. She never has to work again. I heard someone say yesterday, "I wouldn't want that life." Are you kidding me??? I'd give my right arm to be taken care of financially for the rest of my life. Yes you are in the public eye and have public duties but it's not like you're having to work in a labor intensive industry or threatening your life on a daily basis. You have to make public appearances and be photographed. Oh the horror.
Alright. At least this stuff is out of my head now. Now what?





